(originally published in 2009)
As
someone who has worked in more than one ministry {4 or 5 actually} I
can tell you that I have, on occasion :) fallen into this. The desire
to be right. The desire to make my "passion" everyone's passion. The
desire to bring my ministry, my calling, to the forefront and make it
known to everyone just how important my ministry is. Wow. How crazy
and selfish am I?
Quite, actually. I
think that this is something that every single one of us humans has a
problem with. And it's not that it's a big problem in the beginning but
it can turn into one. Let me explain.
When
I was a youth pastor, teenagers were my passion. I loved everything
about them. They were cool and fun and I loved hanging out with them,
teaching them, and mentoring them. {good} I figured everyone should
love it as much as I do. {not so good} I was amazed at some people's
attitudes towards youth ministry. People were afraid of the teens,
didn't want to volunteer, didn't want to give money to our ministry
etc...it broke my heart. These teens were worth it! They deserved
better!
Then I moved into Children's
ministry. And kids became my passion. I loved teaching, hugging and
loving the kids. {good} I felt like they had been forgotten. I was
appalled that people {including parents} wouldn't volunteer to love our
kids, teach them God's word, and help bring them up. It was such an
important ministry. How could anyone see it any different? {not good}
I
also have served in women's ministry. I loved getting to know women,
hearing their struggles, praying for them, ministering to them, having
fun with them. {good} How could people not all jump at the chance to
serve women? {not good} They deserve it!
Now
I'm doing our greeter ministry and am watching Mark lead worship. Two
other very important ministries. Why don't people jump at the chance to
serve there?
All of these
ministries are important to God. All of them were important to me. Why
was I so upset that they weren't important to everyone else?
Because
God gave ME the heart for each ministry. God showed ME how to be an
advocate for each one, how to love each one, how to serve each one, how
to grow each one and how to be changed by each one. Am I right because
I've loved each ministry? No. Is everyone else wrong because they
don't share my passion for each one? No. Then why do I/we live like
that?
I'm not saying that the world
is relative and there is no right and wrong, that's not what I'm talking
about here. I'm talking about the life that each one of us has. Why
do we insist on thinking everyone should agree with everything we do?
Is it so we are validated? So that we can be encouraged that we're
doing the right ministry or raising our children right or believing the
right politics? How sad are we?
I've
seen people devastated in ministry because their ministry didn't get
the attention they thought it deserved. They were bitter because their
ministry wasn't highlighted, wasn't given the funding, wasn't given the
attention by the "appropriate" people. They quit. They gave up. Sadly
their audience wasn't the important ONE. The important ONE is God.
Instead of looking to God for encouragement, validation etc... they
looked to man. Man-who will always fail us. Always. Youth, children,
greeters, missions, worship, sound, tech., orphans, men, women, singles,
married, college...you name it, they all want to be the most important
ministry. And they should be. Because they are all important to God.
And He gives each of us a heart for that ministry. A heart to help. A
heart to love, to minister, to be Jesus. We just can't expect everyone
to feel the exact same way that we do. God gives each of us a heart for
that ministry during that season for a reason. To bring attention to
them maybe. Who knows. But we need to stop freaking out when others
don't feel the same. God will take care of it. He will bring others
with the same heart to our ministry. We just need to be obedient to
what He's asked us to do. And stop being distracted by what we think
others ought to be doing.
It
doesn't stop in ministry either. I've seen parents like this. They
are adamant about the choices they've made for their children and want
everyone to agree. Like they are horrible parents if no else is doing
it the exact same way they are. Adamant that you give birth naturally,
or take drugs, breastfeed or bottle-feed, adopt or get pregnant, have a
dozen children or none, spank or not, organic food or not, pacifiers or
not, homeschool or public school, cloth diapers or disposable etc...It's
insane! I've definitely, at times, been part of the problem. Hard to
admit that I wanted others to agree with how I was raising my children
in order to feel like I was doing the right thing. Instead of asking
God, the ONE who gave me these children, if I was doing alright, I
looked to others. And frankly, it made/makes me miserable. Because not
everyone does it the same. They're not supposed to. And I'm not
failing because I don't do it like everyone else. I'm not a bad parent
because I gave birth to my children, breastfed them, disposable diapered
them, spanked them on occasion, gave them whatever food I have,
pacifiered them, homeschooled them and loved them. Nor are you a bad
parent if you don't do any of this! Why must we constantly compare?
I
think it has to do with our need to feel good. To feel right. Ugh!
We all just wanna be right. Let's stop the madness. Let's stop the
judgment. Let's look to HIM for our validation, our encouragement, our
instructions, our worth. Man {woman} will fail us. Every time.